WHAT NOW...

Writing this blog is in a way like jumping off the high dive for the first time...scary but exciting. Will I sink or swim? I remember when I was younger the world seemed so full of endless, exciting possibilities. Life was itself scary & exciting, and seemingly endless. Now, I'm older and it's still exciting and  sometimes even a little scary, but it doesn't seem so endless anymore. I can see clearly now that there is an end to all of this. Even though I've suffered through the loss of so many who were so close, it still didn't seem to be any closer to me. Now I find myself feeling panicky, overwhelmed and almost haunted by the things I never said, never did - places I never saw. Even books, movies, plays & music I never saw or heard. I have a sense of urgency to do those things NOW! Writing should also be on that list. So now, I've started that with this blog. This one was only to dip my toes in and test the waters. It may not be the best one you've ever read and hopefully not the best one I'll ever write! But it is my first one, my start. It is all me and I'm proud of myself!